It's been awhile.

Thanks, Lawrencia, for making a comment. The autoblog sent me notification which also reminded me that I actually do have a blog.
Today has been a day. I find myself feeling very badly because I had to remind my children of an agreement that we made a few months ago. I agreed to keep Leslieann's beautiful new son until she found childcare for him. I said I would keep him through the end of the year (he would be 6 months 0ld), AS LONG AS SHE WAS ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR CHILDCARE. Tonight I found myself having to repeat and remind her and her fiance of our agreement. Now I feel like I am letting them down because I feel like I am keeping Chan at the expense of me joining the rest of the world. I could always take him places, but it is hard for me to get that carseat in and out of the car. I am absolutely exhausted after that.
Chan is so precious, but I have done all I can, or all that I want to. I told Thomas that there is just no backup for me. I want to be able to enjoy Chip's visit over Thanksgiving. Have not seen him in 2 years now. He has a new daughter I have never seen and 3 other children I want to enjoy. And of course his wife Linda. Bernie's family will be joining us and perhaps my Dad. There is so much I want to do to prepare for all. It is hard with a baby.
I don't know what to do now. I nearly called for Lauren but all that would be doing is getting her to take sides. Whatever. There is no good ending to this story.

Happy birthday, Lester!

When I got up this morning, my hives were 100 times better. Pink spots remained but most of the itching was limited to my hands and face. Lauren had playgroup here, but volunteered to run to the store for me afterwards. That was a great help!
I made chicken marsala tonight to celebrate Lester's 29th birthday. It was not my best, but it was pretty good. Everyone seemed to like it and wanted to be part of the leftovers. Much of the wine flavor did not cook out as it should have, so I hope it did not have any effect on Lester and Thomas. The boys were pretty good at the table, so maybe there is hope for them yet.
I gave Leslieann a check for $100. I just hope she was not disappointed. I just have so much trouble getting into gifts these days. She knows how much I love and treasure her. Maybe that is enough. Thomas was smoking outside. UGH! Otherwise I really do like him! He had just gotten home from his construction job in Alabama and has to go back tomorrow. Boy was he exhausted! I wonder if he came home for Lester's birthday? I just wonder about their relationship. Leslieann is so lonely and seems so needy sometimes!
It was a nice get together and a good night.
I watched Jon and Henry on the trampoline today. They got up early from their naps and were outside jumping and talking and laughing. I did not SPY on them by any stretch of the imagination, but just watched for a minute or two when I passed a window or put the dog out. It was wonderful watching them. Jon is a fantastic father.
Vicki has called me 3 times already as we watch Big Brother. She is so lonely. I wish she would come on and move up here!
Tomorrow I go to Dr. Tuckett for a physical. I need it. Something has to give. I have not felt good for such a long time. I don't feel bad. I just don't feel.

Beware the sulfa!

Well, I am obviously going to have to do better at blogging. It's not like I have something else to do.
I got up this morning with huge hives all over my body. After showing them to Lauren, we just sat here and tried to think of what it is that I am allergic to. I pulled a few weeds last night. I helped Lauren and Jon unload the car after their beach trip. Lulu and I sat outside for a long time without spraying our arms and legs for bugs. Perhaps I got so many mosquito bites, that caused it.
After looking around on the Internet, I have decided it must be the bactrim. About 10 years ago, I was taking a sulpha drug and got a small rash. Since Bernie and I were leaving for Colorado the next day, I did not call the doctor. The rash thing made me uncomfortable, so I stopped the meds. When I got home, I called Dr. Breckwoldt. He said it was hard to be sure, but to be on the safe side, just to always say I was allergic to sulpha. He said there were lots of other drugs out there that could be used instead.
Last week, Dr. Thopu and I talked and decided to find out about my allergy, because sulpha drugs are so good when trying to clear up a sinus infection (which seems to be triggering my MRSA pneumonia episodes). I have been on it a week now, so I just could not imagine the hives being from the drugs. I have a call into the doctor. It was late, though, so I guess they will call back in the AM. In the meantime, I guess I will forgo the Bactrim.

Gotta start somewhere!

I'm beginning my blog on the day I am trying to finish the shadow box layout for my Dad. I am making it for Father's Day so I have to finish by tomorrow to make sure it gets in the mail Tuesday morning!

If there is anything I could accomplish by having a blog, I would like to see where all my time goes each day. I would like to be sure to try to accomplish SOMETHING each day. Something that I feel needs to be done. Perhaps I will not procrastinate so much if I read this and write often enough. Tomorrow the Best Buy TV repair man is going to come and fix the giant TV. It is still under warranty, until October 24. How about that? As always, Bernie is watching over me. Thank you God.

Watched the final episode of the Sopranos a few minutes ago. I am still in shock! What kind of ending is that? I thought my power had gone out! What were the writers trying to say? It is bad enough that there are no more Sopranos, now there is no ending too. I am suffering!

PattiO